2004-09-16 - 6:05 a.m.
Feeling constrained by your work?
Break time. I took Jill to work at
10:00, thinking that I would come home and get some more sleep. But It never happened. We had practice at 6:45, I had a meeting with my new clients at 9:30, and came home at 11:00, ate, and started work around 12:30.
Just finished a set of five drawers, they are all different sizes so it took forever to make them. And now I’m taking a quick break before I head back out to finish the shelves.
I’ll try to get a couple hours of sleep before I head out to chapel hill today and finish the installation. I should really be there by 12:00 since I have another meeting at 6:00 tonight. (It takes me almost an hour to get out there) SO I need to leave at 11:00, which is only five hours from now.
I wrote all that out to illustrate a condition I’ve had since I left the military. When I was in the service (and for most of my life before that) I always had an excess of time. “Six more hours till my shift ends” “two more years in uniform” “one month to go and I’m out of the desert.” You get the idea. I was always waiting for time to pass. Now I never wait for time to pass, my mind is constantly playing the game I illustrated above.
“Ok I’ve got five hours, I need to work for at least one, I’d like to sleep a little, but it would also be nice to read a bit…”
Is there not a happy medium?! Busy some of the time, bored some of the time? I’m never bored. At times when I should be bored, (red light, waiting in the vets office ect…) I find myself hoping it will last just a minute longer, just one more minute when I should be working but I can’t due to forces beyond my control.
And now,,, I have to get back….
To ….. work.
Justus
